What do I want to be when I grow up?

What do I want to be when I grow up?

Yikes!  My first blog ever.  I very much feel like a fish out of water.  I have found every excuse possible to avoid starting this adventure.  Well I am finally out of excuses and here I am.  Being promoted to Sihing has given me the kick in the butt to start doing the things that I have said “some day I would like to…” or “I really should…”  I am a person who feels more comfortable in the back row and behind the scenes. This whole blogging in public is going to be a HUGE step out of my comfort zone.   I have the quiet voice that people have to strain to hear, even in warm ups when I would swear I was yelling.  My kids even tell me I’m not even very good at yelling at them, ha ha ha.  Well, lots to work on.

 I find myself in a weird place in my life at this moment.  As of a week ago I quit a part time job that I have been at for about 4 years.  I have been very fortunate to be able to be a stay at home mom when our kids were little.  As they got older and started school it was still important to our family that someone was at home when the kids got on the bus and were at home to meet them when the bus dropped them off after school.  This job allowed me to pick my availability, have weekends off and even only work one day a week during the summer months.  It worked well for our family and it was good for me to get out and around people.  My body started taking a real beating physically from a lot of heavy lifting and pulling, and in the last few months it turned into a very negative place to be.  I could walk into work with a smile on my face and by the end of the day I felt mentally drained and defeated.   Well this year I decided to change all that and took a huge leap and gave my 2 weeks notice.  I decided that it was time to surround myself with people I want to be like and an environment that is positive and encouraging. I am seeing my boys grow up to be young men so quickly and I want to enjoy every minute I can with them because I know the day is coming (I have seen little bits of it already) where it’s not cool for mom to be around or they will have other places they would rather be(like with friends).   We all went through this stage in life.  Our oldest is now 14 years old so the teenager thing is here with a vengeance.  I have made the decision, with a lot of encouragement from my family, to strive for something more.  I want to set an example that will help lead my kids in a positive direction in life.  I was promoted to Sihing just before Christmas, and somehow that promotion has pushed me to actually start striving for some of the things “I would like to someday do” or “ things I really should do”.    In the last week alone I have started working on my list of challenges for myself and I am really excited to see where all this will take me!