I have, for the last 2 weeks, struggled with finding balance between my training and my other commitments. The initial setting up flavors pages and a blog page, coming up with challenges that meant something to me and trying to come up with a plan as to how to tackle this year, has had my mind racing. I have felt a little overwhelmed and kind of nervous. I have read over requirements again and again for I Ho Chuan and find myself wondering how am I going to accomplish this?
I am fortunate to have a family who is very patient and understanding. Even though, I have found myself feeling guilty that I have neglected some things while focusing on others. Somehow the days seem to be flying by and I feel a little disappointed that I haven’t accomplished all that I wanted. I have found that as soon as my numbers and reps are done for the day, the rest of the day goes so much smoother. On the other hand, if I don’t get that training in until later on in the day, I seem a little anxious and wanting to get to it. It is not that the other things are less important, I think it’s just my personality, if it’s on my list, lets get it done. I find kung fu seems to be on my mind all the time, even when I should be focusing on other things. My oldest son jokingly told me the other day that I should take the nunchuks out of the kitchen because every time I start playing with them, while waiting for something on the stove, the smoke detector goes off and we have another burnt meal (it only happened twice). Although I need to focus more on what I am doing at a particular time, I realize just how much kung fu has become a way of life for our family. This goes from our diet, importance of exercise and activity, acts of kindness, how we deal with everyday situations in our life, and so on. It’s in everything we do. All around us people are plugging away, just trying to make it through another day, the same thing day in and day out, a life of the ordinary. I really want something more!
There is more to life than just that one thing. It is made up of a variety of different parts, each needing care and attention. This is everything from work, school, family, kung fu etc. Finding balance varies so much from person to person, depending where they are in their life and what commitments they have. I am relieved to hear that I am not the only one who has been in this place before, trying to sort it all out. I have been told that I need to fit kung fu into my life not my life into kung fu. How true this is. I need to have a plan but need to be flexible to change and alter as things come up, whether they are due to sickness, injuries etc. I am so working on it!
I have come to the conclusion that I am going to take one day at a time, to focus on what I am doing and have a purpose for doing it. All anyone can ask of me, is to do my best. That is exactly what I intend to do. I so agree with Mr. Chervenka’s last blog on heart. When a person puts all he has into something, because it is important to them, you can only get one more step to something great.
Alana Regier
