This year has been a very full year for me. It seems that one day I received Sihing status
and all of a sudden I had committed myself to a path with a list of
requirements and challenges that have at times felt overwhelming and
crazy. But what a year! I feel
much better going into the year of the snake with having an idea of what to
expect. I have learnt, most times the
hard way, what worked and what didn’t for me.
Reflecting on the year of the dragon I would have to say that I have
never had such an opportunity to learn and grow in every aspect of my
life. I have had opportunities to face
fears, to push myself (mentally, physically and spiritually), to learn from
mistakes, to set a list of personal goals and be held accountable for them and at
the same time get to know some really great people who are passionate about
what they do and have similar goals and priorities in their own lives.
For myself, I would say that the best part of this year was
the setting of personal goals. I have over the years casually said “this year I’m
going to…” but have never followed through.
I wasn’t held accountable to anyone so I soon forgot and never felt the
need to pursue. This year was
different. I had people come right up to
me and ask ”so how you doing with…” This
turned out to be a needed push and encouragement to strive towards meeting the
goals that I had carefully chosen for myself. I’ve learnt the importance of choosing goals
that are realistic and sustainable and fit with what is important in my life. I don’t
want a list I can just cross things off of and never visit or think of again,
but rather have goals I can not only meet but build on and make even bigger.
My biggest obstacle right now is convincing my family that
my decision to be a part of the snake team is a good one. This has been the first year I have been a
part of the I Ho Chuan team and I have to admit that I have had my moments of
struggle. Fortunately these are the
times I have probably learned the most about myself and what I need to change. I haven’t always done a great job at
convincing my family that this is good for me and in turn for them. Although I have accomplished a list of things
this past year, I have put my focus and attention in the wrong direction at times.
I have pushed a little too far with injuries and had a breakdown of body parts
here and there. I have been guilty of making
choices that were not always considerate of my entire family. This last one especially is a very humbling
and a hard one to admit. For these
reasons I can understand my family’s doubt in committing to another year. This isn’t just a commitment I am making for
myself, but one that involves my entire family.
This makes it absolutely necessary for me to be diligent in continuing
to make them a priority.
So how do I prove to them that this is all good? All I can do is to prove it to them by my
actions. My personal challenges are
hugely related to my time and how I spend it.
I am making the commitment to them that I will be the mother, the wife,
the daughter, the sister and the friend that I want to be and that they need me
to be. At the same time I am going to
strive to set an example of what committing myself, engaging myself and working
towards mastery can achieve. I’m not going
to pretend that I’ve got the whole balance thing figured out (that would be a
lie). Every time I think I might be
getting a little closer, situations and circumstances arise that have a tendency
to throw things all out of whack again. However, I do believe that I have learned a
great deal this past year and am anxious for the chance to prove it.
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