Monday 21 May 2018

The Same Inside and Out


I have found myself in a spot of what I first viewed as a lack of motivation, however, looking at it closer I discovered it has come down to more of a problem of a shortage of time to get done all I want to and a bit of a struggle with prioritizing what I really need to and want to do in order to sleep better at night.  For many people a little chaos in their surroundings isn’t a big deal and does not leave them sleepless at night but for others of us, being able to watch our childrens soccer game or crew our other child in his race, cut the grass, weed the flower beds (with a headlamp if required), walk the dog, clean the house, oh ya and work etc etc etc. has to be done in order to have our minds and bodies at peace. 

With winter hibernation at an end and the added stuff the season brings, my balancing act feels to be falling apart.  My day starts early and I go go go all day and at the end find there are just not enough hours no matter how hard I try, plan and schedule.  In the end I feel like I have been rushing and not getting what I truly should out of some things and not completing others with the quality I want.  No matter how much I tried to foresee what would be reasonable but yet challenging goals for my year, I cannot help but feel like I have bit off more than I can chew.  To say it plain and simple, I’m not doing well with my goals and feel like it’s turning out to be another year of struggling.  Time to reset and change my plan.  Hmmmm… where to start? 

I’m no stranger to the dips and holes and hope every year I can learn a little more to help with future success.  We talk of balance a lot in our group and with this I am constantly striving to balance my whole life, sometimes with little success.  I want the lessons I learn in the kwoon to filter out to my life outside the walls and at the same time allow the lessons I have learned outside in my life to help better what I do in the kwoon.  For me it’s the meshing of my life in and out that will demonstrate whether I’m truly on a path of mastery.  I cannot be one person in the kwoon and give the illusion that I have things all figured out but outside live in a state of chaos or in a manner that does not represent who I really am and what I really care about and believe. So here I am a work in progress, still trying to find another strategy, tool or plan that will help me get back to a place where I can feel like I am making progress and accomplishing all the things I want and need to and doing it as a way of life rather than for just a season. I want those who see me in the kwoon to recognize me as the same person outside.

As I look at my role models, inspirations and motivators, it is to people who I respect and believe live and handle ALL of life with character, integrity and perserverance.  They aren’t people who have it all figured out and all ducks in a row but rather continue to work towards and hold true to what they believe and cherish.  It is in observing and talking to these individuals that I hope to better find and keep the balance I am in so need of finding. Life continues to be full of lessons, the moment we quit learning we die.  So as Sid the sloth said, ‘I choose life.”

Alana Regier
http://alanaregier.blogspot.ca
Picture of the week taken on Brandons and my road trip to Waterton!
 

Tuesday 8 May 2018

Feet On Fire


Finally the leaves are starting to emerge, the geese are back and the frogs are going crazy.   With spring finally here the balancing act begins, new routines, shuffling of activities and the dreaded steel toe boots.  Aaaaaaah the steel toe boots, my nemesis.  It seems with the extra amount of time I have to spend in those evil little things my feet are rebelling more than normal.  I have found my plantar fasciitis flaring up to a whole new level again, making my feet feel like they are constantly on fire.  Needless to say I am struggling with some of my goals for the simple fact that my feet will only take so much.  To spend much time on the mats in bare feet is a challenge and to wear my kung fu shoes is causing torqueing on my knees.  My running is taking a bit of a hit, which isn’t sitting too well with me right now and my walks with my furry family member are down to two a day.  I have tried explaining to her my dilemma but she just continues to look at my trying to will me to get my running shoes on.  On a positive note, I am biking wherever and whenever I can which continues to be good for my knees being that the bike was a huge part of my physio last year for my knee.  They aren’t quite the km’s I had planned in my goals but they are what I can do at this moment and I’m working really hard to be okay with that.  I am reminded constantly throughout each day just how connected my body is.  Feet don’t just affect feet alone but affect everything from balance all the way up my body impacting parts you would never have thought connected.

So as the demands increase and the timelines get closer, I continue to take step by step, mostly forward, at a little slower a pace than I’d like but still grateful for what I am able to do.

Alana Regier                                                                                                  

 



Picture of the week!  Zip lining in Mexico with the family a couple of years ago.  A fabulous day facing one of my fears, the fear of heights!