About 8 years ago I found myself dealing with a torn rotator
cuff. I learnt quickly just how much I had taken
being able to do simple tasks on a daily basis for granted. At my lowest points
I found myself unable to even tie my shoes or hold my keys or a cup of coffee,
sleep was impossible with pain and then there was the numbness that flared up
leaving me more fumbly (don’t think that’s a word) and accident prone than
normal. When I didn’t’ think it could
get worse I was proven wrong. With one
shoulder out of commission the other one had to compensate and was used for
EVERYTHING! Before long I wasn’t even
sure which shoulder was in worse condition.
I have over time, and many times by mistake, been learning of
the things that aggravate it as well as the bigger things that put me back to
dragging my purse and drinking out of a straw.
As much as I have pat myself on the back for not quitting completely, I
have found that I have developed some bad habits while unconsciously trying to
protect from a re-injury. I have lost muscle strength (especially in the micro
muscles) and have a considerable loss of flexibility. Unfortunately I remember all too well how low
and discouraged and in pain I felt at one time and have felt the need to do
everything possible from going back to that place. With that mind set I have sometimes been
afraid to push it beyond what I need to in order to get stronger and progress.
Sooo… as one of my
personal requirements this year I have added strength training to my
workouts. In becoming part of this year’s
team this personal challenge really was a no brainer. No matter what weapon I considered, I needed
my shoulders, therefore, I needed to strengthen and build. Three days a week I have added free weights
and bowflex exercises to my training routine. I have had to adjust as I go along and humble
myself to using the 2lb weights for some exercises (they truly look small and
resemble more of a childs toy). After 2
months of commitment to these exercises and mindfully working on technique
rather than racking numbers, I can honestly say I feel a difference. It may not be a visible difference to some,
however, I know that I can now do Stick form or swing my Escrima sticks around
every day without paying for it come bed time.
I am still practicing progressing wisely and still doing the
best I can to listen to my body. I realize that it’s a process and will take
time but I am encouraged by the small steps, even though they seem to go in
both directions. Although it is hard for
me to admit and I would have argued differently at one point, a great amount
can be learnt from injuries. What you
choose to learn and take away from the experience is individual and up to
you. It can be discouraging and humbling
but it can only take you out completely if you allow it to.
So today I am grateful for the small steps and progression I
have been able to make. I promise to put
my escrima sticks down before numbness sets in to avoid taking out my fellow team
mates or the kwoon mirrors.
Alana Regier
http://alanaregier.blogspot.ca
